While growing up, it was no mystery that I was smart. That i could learn anything and remember it forever, unless it was street skills. The day I stepped foot into high school I was determined to be successful in school. I wasn't in the state the year before to learn about the summer reading project so the day i found out I bought the book stayed up until 4:30, 5 in the morning to read it and do the project and only get an hour and half to two hours of sleep. I made an 85 on that project but I turned it in ontime and I stayed up alllll night to do it. I never gave up. Right now, I still haven't done an AP Enlgish 3 project that was due the day after thanksgiving break...or the Algebra 2 proj due the same week. I have absolutely zero motivation for ANYTHING. I can't sleep at night...i'm always up until the crack of dawn and it doesn't matter what I do I can never fall asleep. My grades are...not what I would like them to be. High school isn't at all what I want it to be. It is like being stuck in middle school all over again. This school has done nothing but entrap me in its claws and squeeze harder and harder every year and I try to make friends and all that happens is that they say I am selfish and I talk about myself all the time. Well, I am sorry I try to help people and sometimes people don't think I understand. Isn't that what friends do? They vent and the help each other and they share things about themselves that they can't share with anyone. I talk about them with them all the time. I rarely mention myself because I don't share anything with anyone. It is hard for me. This blog is what kick started all of the sharing and expressing myself in the first place.
All I am saying is that I need a fresh start and I need motivation. For anything.
xoxo, NothingbutAverage <33
P.S.
If you haven't heard about the inspiring story about Ben Breedlove, PLEASE please pleaseeee go to youtube and look up his story. You can even be a part of his family's healing process.
